I’ve fallen many times - with someone new, with someone who’s just been there all along, with someone older, with someone younger, with someone so far away, with someone in a relationship, with someone who can’t commit… and the list can go on and on.
After every heartbreak, I tend to ask myself what went wrong – why it didn’t lead to a serious relationship, why things didn’t fall into place as expected, why the timing wasn’t right, and why is it always a short-lived love affair.
Then I realized that I shouldn’t waste time contemplating on what I might have done wrong. In the same way, I shouldn’t busy myself analyzing someone’s reasons for letting something that could have been special fall apart just like that. Because the answer lies in the fact, that things happen because both parties let it happen. And it’s never the accountability of just one person. Cliché as it may sound, it really takes two to tango.
Most of the time, I find myself falling for a person in different ways. The result is I also get hurt in different ways. And the brief connection or relationship breaks in various ways due to various reasons.
Here are the “someones” I have encountered in my life, some would be a mixture of two or several of these types. I recall what is it in them and what we had that made me believe in a happy ever after ending. Here, I also analyzed why after all the great times, things just didn’t work out.
• Someone new – Everything is bright and rosy. Your hopes are high that this may be the one thing you’ve been looking for. You tell yourself, he can be “the one.” It’s refreshing to fall for someone you’ve just met. You fulfill your fantasy of having soul mates and fairytale romance.
The catch: I fell in love with the idea of love. I liked the idea of something brand new, but not necessarily like everything about the person. Perhaps it was infatuation, but not really love.
• Someone who’s just been there all along – It was a pleasant surprise. Having a close friend who’s around for ages is sweet. But realizing that you are falling for someone you really knew from head to food is sweeter. No need for the awkward getting-to-know phase, because you know everything about this person. It’s lovely how friendship can turn into romance.
The catch: I felt too secured with my comfort zone, including that close friend who’s been there all along. I had someone I can call 24/7 without hesitation and he’ll be there. But I liked the security more than the emotional attachment. There was no real spark, so to speak.
• Someone much older - There’s something classy and mysterious about older men. Most of them usually treat women with utmost adoration, it’s no wonder it’s easy to fall for them. Perhaps because of their age and experience, they know how a woman wants to be treated as they seem more sensitive and mature. You get to talk about anything under the sun from the mundane things to the intellectual-type of discussions. It’s exciting how they let you argue with them but let you win in the end, just because they want to please you.
The catch: I was not ready for something long-term. While I enjoy all the attention and affection, I was still struggling on my own, wanting to achieve many things. He was so stable already, and I was not. I wanted a life of my own, and he wanted a life of our own already.
• Someone younger – It makes you enjoy life more than you think you are enjoying it now. Younger men seem to look up to you, and they love the fact that they got the attention of someone older. While you can’t expect them to be with you always on the same plane when it comes to serious stuff in life, you can count on them for the good times. They re-introduce you to the carefree life, and let you be a child from time to time. And this is a refreshing treat for someone who’s too caught up with work or other important matters.
The catch: I like it when a man has plans. And apparently, he did not have a clear direction of his own life, so how can I rely on him to make plans for us? I tend to have a dominant personality. While I am a bit stubborn and appear to want to get what I always want, I secretly wish that the man has the ability to lead me and not the other way around. He didn’t have a clue of what he wants in life, while I have my life quite mapped out already.
• Someone so far away – It keeps you wanting for more. The prospect of long distance love affair is daunting yet exciting. It’s disheartening at first, as your doubts tend to overcome you. You don’t know if it will work, and you don’t know how it will succeed. But the exciting part is you establish that special connection that you cannot explain. What makes it more beautiful is you carry with you that hope that time will come that you’ll turn your plans and fantasies into reality.
The catch: Distance and time apart can make or break a relationship, more so if it’s just a special connection. Both factors let me nurture extraordinary feelings that I have not felt for anyone who’s just within my reach. I though it would lead to something better, but I guess I was not ready to wait for what seems like forever to be with him. There were a lot of uncertainties, and it killed my interest in the person and in the potential of a life-long partnership.
• Someone in a relationship – It gives you a taste of a bitter sweet love affair. Nobody wants to be second best. But when you chanced upon a person who makes your heart beat in an instant, you refuse to let him go- even it means that you are just second in his life. A man who is in a relationship seems quite attractive because you know that someone else finds him attractive too. Grabbing his attention thrills you because it means he cannot resist you even if he is committed to someone else. You try your best to avoid falling, but the more you do that, the more you get attached to him.
The catch: The fact that he is committed to someone else is the main catch. I ignored this at the onset, relying on that strong hope that he will like me more than the person he is with. Good thing I didn’t let myself be drawn to him seriously. I let him go, because I know I deserve to be first in someone else’s life.
• Someone who can’t commit – You’re in for a rollercoaster ride. He’s single and appealing, but you don’t know for sure why he can’t commit even if it is obvious that he is into you. He is not consistent with his words and actions, but you try to justify everything he say or do. He is everything that you want, but you find yourself always second-guessing his true feelings for you. He is the aggressive type, yet he balks when you begin to get serious. He is the assertive type, yet he cringes at the idea of settling down. He is close to perfection, close to your ideal man, and that’s the only thing that is good about him. And because you are secretly hoping that he’s “the one”, you try to wait, enjoy the moment, and tell yourself, that time will come that he will commit.
The catch: He simply won’t commit. And I had to let go of him to shield myself from useless pain in waiting and hoping. He even had a hard time expressing his feelings, or at least acknowledge that what we had was special. I don’t need this crap, so I moved on.
You see, I’ve fallen many times - with someone new, with someone who’s just been there all along, with someone older, with someone younger, with someone so far away, with someone in a relationship, with someone who can’t commit… and the list can go on and on.
These caused me sleepless nights and emotional outbursts, but I have to say that these experiences made me a stronger and wiser me. I bring with me meaningful lessons that I cannot learn from any school in the world. As they say, experience is the best teacher.
I am looking forward to another whole new world of experience, hopefully this time with that someone I will spend with the rest of my life. I will not just fall… but I will fall in love both with the person and with the idea of love.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Monday, November 1, 2010
Taking Short-Cuts
I know when I'm about to fall for someone. I've seen the same things happening, and I have always felt the same way. I know the signs, and no matter how hard I avoid them, I still can't stop myself from feeling too drawn to someone. I tried to change, and for a while I have to say that I've become successful. I managed not to be so affectionate to one person and live my life normally. But at one point, IT will happen. I will forget the words chill, relax, cool, calm, etc. All I want is assurance from that person that his feelings for me are real and will not change. While I really try to go with the flow, something will just trigger that need in me to lay down the cards. I don't care if that might scare the guy away, as long as I get the answers I want now. I want to know what is and what is not. And I want straight answers, if what we have is going somewhere or not.
Some tell-tale signs that I'm into a person is when I feel irritated if he does not communicate with me like he used to. It's either he talks to me more often or just the same, but never less. Once I panic because I find the irregularity in his text messages or calls, then I'm hooked. I better get a good explanation for that because as they say if there's a will, there's a way. I hate lame excuses. If I easily feel bad when he says something negative about how I look, then I care about what that person thinks about me. Who wouldn't want to look and feel beautiful all the time for that man you secretly wish is yours? And once I start sending long emails, then that person has really grown special to me. I don't waste time composing emails or letters to someone I don't give a damn.
I'm starting to feel scared when these signs are happening... because I know that I am about to expose myself to another possible heartbreak. You don't have guarantees and assurances, all you've got are doubts and confusions. You want that time to come when both of you will know if you will commit with each other or not. But before that time arrives, you know that you have to go through a process, or a journey. But me? I'm stubborn. Most of the time, I want to skip that part. At the beginning, I'll enjoy it, but for some reason, I want to take the shorter way. I don't know why, but this has become a habit of mine. And my fear springs from my experience that short cuts can hurt you a lot. I hope to find that man who will be with me, despite the short cuts I'm fond of doing. Then I'll be willing to go the long, winding, rocky journey with him for the rest of my life.
Some tell-tale signs that I'm into a person is when I feel irritated if he does not communicate with me like he used to. It's either he talks to me more often or just the same, but never less. Once I panic because I find the irregularity in his text messages or calls, then I'm hooked. I better get a good explanation for that because as they say if there's a will, there's a way. I hate lame excuses. If I easily feel bad when he says something negative about how I look, then I care about what that person thinks about me. Who wouldn't want to look and feel beautiful all the time for that man you secretly wish is yours? And once I start sending long emails, then that person has really grown special to me. I don't waste time composing emails or letters to someone I don't give a damn.
I'm starting to feel scared when these signs are happening... because I know that I am about to expose myself to another possible heartbreak. You don't have guarantees and assurances, all you've got are doubts and confusions. You want that time to come when both of you will know if you will commit with each other or not. But before that time arrives, you know that you have to go through a process, or a journey. But me? I'm stubborn. Most of the time, I want to skip that part. At the beginning, I'll enjoy it, but for some reason, I want to take the shorter way. I don't know why, but this has become a habit of mine. And my fear springs from my experience that short cuts can hurt you a lot. I hope to find that man who will be with me, despite the short cuts I'm fond of doing. Then I'll be willing to go the long, winding, rocky journey with him for the rest of my life.
Monday, October 25, 2010
Spell HAPPINESS
It's been a long time since I last wrote about something that makes me happy. Part of me has been so cynical, that I refuse to believe that there is something for real that would give me happiness. Lately, I found myself basking in joy, and I don't know where this glow is coming from. :)
I'm just thankful that life still gives me more chances to smile. I am grateful for the blessings that were given to me. It's good that after all the hurts and disappointments in the past, I've mustered enough strength to dust myself and continue to carry on. I've learned to choose my battles well, and continue looking forward to a lovelier tomorrow. I know there's still more rough roads ahead, but I believe that we choose the way how our life will turn out.
And now I'm choosing to move forward. I want all the problems to worry about me, and not the other way around. I will spare myself from unnecessary pain by not over analyzing my situation. In short, just CHILL. :) Happiness comes when you're appreciating the view and enjoying the exciting ride.
I'm just thankful that life still gives me more chances to smile. I am grateful for the blessings that were given to me. It's good that after all the hurts and disappointments in the past, I've mustered enough strength to dust myself and continue to carry on. I've learned to choose my battles well, and continue looking forward to a lovelier tomorrow. I know there's still more rough roads ahead, but I believe that we choose the way how our life will turn out.
And now I'm choosing to move forward. I want all the problems to worry about me, and not the other way around. I will spare myself from unnecessary pain by not over analyzing my situation. In short, just CHILL. :) Happiness comes when you're appreciating the view and enjoying the exciting ride.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Things I WILL DO Before Getting Married
Maybe Cupid was lost along the way. And perhaps I came across some cupids pretending to be THE Cupid. Because I got hit by several arrows many times in the heart, only to find out that I've got a bleeding heart! Hahaha. Yes, I believe in Mr. Cupid and call me cheesy, but I'm someone who still believes in "THE ONE." I don't mind, because a lot of my friends believe in that, and not to mention soulmates too.
I have yet to find the love of my life. When I turned 27 last May, I admit that I sort of felt the pressure. Most of my relatives kept on asking me when is MY DAY, and WHO is the lucky one. I got irritated at times, but now I'm getting the hang of it. I told my self not to rush, and it will come. It's hard for me to believe this a few months back, but after all that happened in my life recently, I'm now chilling... and not worrying about it at all.
I want to focus on ME, as I've said in my previous post. :) And so, I came up with a list of what I WILL DO before I tie the knot:
1. Travel abroad alone. Okay, if not alone, with a close friend hahaha.. Because I'm not sure if I can manage my first travel overseas all by myself. Unlucky me, I haven't been to any other country but the Philippines. :( So I guess, that explains why travelling abroad is on top of my list! For my first trip overseas, I'd love to go to Singapore and Malaysia.
2. Start a business. And I don't just mean my current business which is selling goodies at work hehehe. Of course, it helps a lot. But I want a business wherein I will invest a a great deal of money, something from which I can gain big profit in the long run. I actually wanted to put up a bar and resto / grill or a spa hahaha.. But since I guess my savings in the next months won't be enough for this kind of business, then I'd go for a gift / school supplies shop. I don't know where, but I have to start somewhere!!
3. Write my partial memoir. If I'll compile all my writings in my journals and diaries, I can create a book already. Partial memoir only because my story will continue til I get married, have kids, and grow old! I want to show my memoir to my future husband, and share with him all that's in me, and in my heart.
I think I still have a lot in my list, but I'll stop at item number 3. Hehehe. I want my goals to be doable in terms of time, effort, and resources. Once I fulfill all of these, then I might add more to this list.
Disclaimer! These are the things I swear I will really, really do before marriage. BUT in case I can't fulfill all of these, and my man has come, and love love love swept me off my feet, then no one can stop me from getting married hahaha. Good luck to me! I'm sure I can do at least one of these in my list before MY DAY. :)
I have yet to find the love of my life. When I turned 27 last May, I admit that I sort of felt the pressure. Most of my relatives kept on asking me when is MY DAY, and WHO is the lucky one. I got irritated at times, but now I'm getting the hang of it. I told my self not to rush, and it will come. It's hard for me to believe this a few months back, but after all that happened in my life recently, I'm now chilling... and not worrying about it at all.
I want to focus on ME, as I've said in my previous post. :) And so, I came up with a list of what I WILL DO before I tie the knot:
1. Travel abroad alone. Okay, if not alone, with a close friend hahaha.. Because I'm not sure if I can manage my first travel overseas all by myself. Unlucky me, I haven't been to any other country but the Philippines. :( So I guess, that explains why travelling abroad is on top of my list! For my first trip overseas, I'd love to go to Singapore and Malaysia.
2. Start a business. And I don't just mean my current business which is selling goodies at work hehehe. Of course, it helps a lot. But I want a business wherein I will invest a a great deal of money, something from which I can gain big profit in the long run. I actually wanted to put up a bar and resto / grill or a spa hahaha.. But since I guess my savings in the next months won't be enough for this kind of business, then I'd go for a gift / school supplies shop. I don't know where, but I have to start somewhere!!
3. Write my partial memoir. If I'll compile all my writings in my journals and diaries, I can create a book already. Partial memoir only because my story will continue til I get married, have kids, and grow old! I want to show my memoir to my future husband, and share with him all that's in me, and in my heart.
I think I still have a lot in my list, but I'll stop at item number 3. Hehehe. I want my goals to be doable in terms of time, effort, and resources. Once I fulfill all of these, then I might add more to this list.
Disclaimer! These are the things I swear I will really, really do before marriage. BUT in case I can't fulfill all of these, and my man has come, and love love love swept me off my feet, then no one can stop me from getting married hahaha. Good luck to me! I'm sure I can do at least one of these in my list before MY DAY. :)
Monday, October 18, 2010
Making Uncertainties Certain
Here are some random facts about me:
I never wanted the feeling of “being in the middle” of things.
I’m a person who always feels that sense of urgency to determine what is and what is not.
I have to always know where I stand in someone’s life.
I must be able to accurately tell what I feel.
I hate uncertainties.
I’d rather know that I’m depressed than not knowing whether I’m happy or sad.
I should know the plans.
I don’t like it if I’m left in the dark.
And yes, I sometimes hate surprises.
But after going through a fast ride recently, I felt that sometimes, it’s good to stay in the middle for a while. No rush, no pressures, no rollercoaster rides – just status quo. Having many options is of course better than not having any option at all. But you have to know when to push it further or just stop.
So now, I want to rest and just shut off from the world for the meantime.
I will stay “in the middle” for a while.
I will not make major or life-changing decisions.
I will go with the flow.
I will take it one day at a time.
I will stop meaningless encounters.
I will avoid people who don’t know what I am to them.
I will take it slow.
I will have time for myself.
Just me.
And I’ll look forward to that day, when I’ll be whole again, and ready to be with that someone who will offer me countless chances of forever- someone who will make all the uncertainties in life seem certain.
I never wanted the feeling of “being in the middle” of things.
I’m a person who always feels that sense of urgency to determine what is and what is not.
I have to always know where I stand in someone’s life.
I must be able to accurately tell what I feel.
I hate uncertainties.
I’d rather know that I’m depressed than not knowing whether I’m happy or sad.
I should know the plans.
I don’t like it if I’m left in the dark.
And yes, I sometimes hate surprises.
But after going through a fast ride recently, I felt that sometimes, it’s good to stay in the middle for a while. No rush, no pressures, no rollercoaster rides – just status quo. Having many options is of course better than not having any option at all. But you have to know when to push it further or just stop.
So now, I want to rest and just shut off from the world for the meantime.
I will stay “in the middle” for a while.
I will not make major or life-changing decisions.
I will go with the flow.
I will take it one day at a time.
I will stop meaningless encounters.
I will avoid people who don’t know what I am to them.
I will take it slow.
I will have time for myself.
Just me.
And I’ll look forward to that day, when I’ll be whole again, and ready to be with that someone who will offer me countless chances of forever- someone who will make all the uncertainties in life seem certain.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Quick-Fix
It’s not easy to get over heartbreaks. And I don’t just mean those caused by silly romance, but all kinds of heartaches you can think of- family problem, financial worries, career stress, health concerns, identity crisis, etc. We have to admit that we don’t recover overnight. Some may take weeks, months, or even years. As they say, the pain will always be there. It’s just that you become numb or immune to it as time goes by.
I deal with agony by WALLOWING for at least a week, max two weeks. “Wallow” as in sulk, cry, mope, talk about it endlessly. I devote myself to depression, I choose to remain helpless… as in wallow! Hahaha. Lucky me I have at my disposal my shrink and therapist friends who have no choice but to deal with my bouts of sadness, sometimes anger and frustration. I tend to overanalyze things- what should have happened, what I did wrong, what could have been done to prevent the mess. I will be at my worst, I will get sick, I will withdraw from the world, and I won’t have a sense of focus during this period. But what’s good about me is I guess, I can bounce back easily after the “wallowing period.”
I’m not saying I will be totally okay after wallowing, but I’ll be back on track at the very least. I won’t be at my happiest of course, but I can manage to laugh from time to time. I will still have “emo” moments, but nevertheless it’s not too much for people around me to be very concerned.
What do I do after wallowing? I do quick-fixes- easy things to do to cure my broken heart, things that will comfort me, and will remind me that hey (cliché as it may sound), there’s a rainbow after the rain. I’d like to share some of my quick-fixes. Some of these are actually common to women, but for those who are still looking for quick-fixes, you might want to try a thing or two from my list:
1. Having a new haircut or new color of hair – like most women, this gives me a feeling of a “brand new me”
2. Eating chocolates – they never fail to lighten up my mood
3. Changing bed sheet and pillow cases – for a more comfortable sleep
4. Slathering my body with baby oil before I sleep – makes me forget problems even for a while
5. Creating a “chill” playlist in my ipod – music soothes me
6. Reading my diaries when I was in gradeschool and highschool – to laugh about my childishness, it’s so refreshing you just want to go back to childhood
7. Writing in my journal – it’s like I am able to transfer all my angst to the journal
8. Buying new earrings or headband – can’t get enough of these, they make me look and feel beautiful despite what I’m going through
9. Deleting old files in my PC and old messages in my phone – it makes me feel much organized, making me more eager to start anew
10. Clothing stuffed toys and dolls – especially my Dora doll; pagiging isip-bata sometimes gives me joy. Call me weird, but I sort of feel that I re-connect with my innermost being when I dress up dolls hahaha, they make me feel I’m needed and I make them happy.
11. Drinking Starbucks Mocha Frappe Coffee or my mom’s coffee – uplifts my spirit, especially when I drink it over a light conversation with a friend, sister, special someone, or my mom
12. Fixing my closet – pulling out clothes I don’t wear anymore is like eliminating all the unnecessary clutters in my mind
Quick-fixes are easy to do and very affordable! They may not totally solve all your problems in the world, but they definitely help you regain your sanity. They don’t give you the answers you are looking for, but they give you a break that you truly need. They are not life-changing, but they can help you change the way you deal with the hardships you are encountering. Quick-fixes may not guarantee that you’ll become a better person, but they will surely let you realize that despite everything, it’s still a wonderful world out there!
I deal with agony by WALLOWING for at least a week, max two weeks. “Wallow” as in sulk, cry, mope, talk about it endlessly. I devote myself to depression, I choose to remain helpless… as in wallow! Hahaha. Lucky me I have at my disposal my shrink and therapist friends who have no choice but to deal with my bouts of sadness, sometimes anger and frustration. I tend to overanalyze things- what should have happened, what I did wrong, what could have been done to prevent the mess. I will be at my worst, I will get sick, I will withdraw from the world, and I won’t have a sense of focus during this period. But what’s good about me is I guess, I can bounce back easily after the “wallowing period.”
I’m not saying I will be totally okay after wallowing, but I’ll be back on track at the very least. I won’t be at my happiest of course, but I can manage to laugh from time to time. I will still have “emo” moments, but nevertheless it’s not too much for people around me to be very concerned.
What do I do after wallowing? I do quick-fixes- easy things to do to cure my broken heart, things that will comfort me, and will remind me that hey (cliché as it may sound), there’s a rainbow after the rain. I’d like to share some of my quick-fixes. Some of these are actually common to women, but for those who are still looking for quick-fixes, you might want to try a thing or two from my list:
1. Having a new haircut or new color of hair – like most women, this gives me a feeling of a “brand new me”
2. Eating chocolates – they never fail to lighten up my mood
3. Changing bed sheet and pillow cases – for a more comfortable sleep
4. Slathering my body with baby oil before I sleep – makes me forget problems even for a while
5. Creating a “chill” playlist in my ipod – music soothes me
6. Reading my diaries when I was in gradeschool and highschool – to laugh about my childishness, it’s so refreshing you just want to go back to childhood
7. Writing in my journal – it’s like I am able to transfer all my angst to the journal
8. Buying new earrings or headband – can’t get enough of these, they make me look and feel beautiful despite what I’m going through
9. Deleting old files in my PC and old messages in my phone – it makes me feel much organized, making me more eager to start anew
10. Clothing stuffed toys and dolls – especially my Dora doll; pagiging isip-bata sometimes gives me joy. Call me weird, but I sort of feel that I re-connect with my innermost being when I dress up dolls hahaha, they make me feel I’m needed and I make them happy.
11. Drinking Starbucks Mocha Frappe Coffee or my mom’s coffee – uplifts my spirit, especially when I drink it over a light conversation with a friend, sister, special someone, or my mom
12. Fixing my closet – pulling out clothes I don’t wear anymore is like eliminating all the unnecessary clutters in my mind
Quick-fixes are easy to do and very affordable! They may not totally solve all your problems in the world, but they definitely help you regain your sanity. They don’t give you the answers you are looking for, but they give you a break that you truly need. They are not life-changing, but they can help you change the way you deal with the hardships you are encountering. Quick-fixes may not guarantee that you’ll become a better person, but they will surely let you realize that despite everything, it’s still a wonderful world out there!
Playlist of my Heart - Part 1
I love music. I'm at my best when I hear melody. I just can't imagine my life without songs. I may not be a very good singer, but I can still sing a few lines especially during videoke nights. And here are some of the tracks which are included in the playlist of my heart:
1. Light and Shade by Fra Lippo Lippi
Be proud to wear the colours that you call your own
Be loud, speak out when the world to know
Be strong, hold the flame for everyone to see
Be weak, if you want to love.
This is my care-free song. It brings me back to places in the past, more of happy memories that I want to revisit over and over again. When I sing this, it reminds me of good old times with closest friends. The best line in this song for me is “Be weak if you want to love.” Giddy it may sound, I’m a person who puts her heart on her sleeves. It’s fulfilling, because I know I’ve given my best shot when it comes to love. Though sometimes I have to learn the hard way, I never regret anything, and I’d surely risk again if I want to love and be loved in return.
2. Linger by Cranberries
But I’m in so deep. You know I’m such a fool for you. You got me wrapped around your finger. Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to, Do you have to let it linger?
I’ve heard this song many times, but I got to appreciate it only when I watched the movie “Click.”This movie teaches us that life is too short, so let your loved ones feel that you value them. I cried when I watched this movie, and when I heard “Linger”, I cried the more. The song reminds me to grab the chances given to us to express how we truly feel for our dear ones. Let your love linger!
3. You Don’t Know Me by Michael Buble
You give your hand to me
Then you say hello
I can hardly speak
My heart is beating so
And anyone can tell
You think you know me well
But you don't know me
This song is just so romantic, period. It sends shiver to my spines. I’d surely melt. This song just sweeps me off my feet.
4. You’re still you by Josh Groban
I look up to
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong
I've loved you for so long
And after all is said and done
You're still you
After all
You're still you
Recently, I’ve discovered through my sister how relaxing Josh Groban music is. I was never a fan of Josh Groban but there was one time when I was so stressed that I got the chance to listen closely to some of his songs when I was staring blankly at the ceiling. This is just one of his songs that I’ve learned to love. It detoxifies me. I don’t know exactly how I feel everytime I listen to it, but I feel “revitalized” perhaps. It seems that angels are carrying me to heavens.
5. She by Elvis Costello
She
May be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day
This was the song that played during my 18th birthday, that’s why this is so memorable to me. I would never forget that feeling I had as I wore my pink gown and walked like a princess just for that night. That experience with family and close friends was priceless.
6. Hero by Enrique Iglesias
I can be you hero baby
I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away
I was once a damsel in distress, and I had my hero. This is one of those special songs I hold in my heart because it let me feel taken care of. I knew how it felt to be helpless and having someone to just be there for you is more than enough. This song is brimming with passion and for me, unconditional love.
7. Just Another Woman in Love by Anne Murray
I'm strong, I'm sure, I'm in control, a lady with a plan
Believing that life is a neat little package I hold in my hand
I've got it together, they call me "the girl who knows just what to say and do"
Still I fumble and fall, run into the wall, 'cause when it comes to you, I'm
Just another woman in love
I know this is a very melodramatic song of a hopeless romantic woman, but for some reason, I love singing this during karaoke nights. I can sing it with gusto, with matching facial expression. I think I like this song because as my friends say, it seems that I’m always a woman in love. Sometimes stupid, foolish, gullible, but nevertheless, full of love!
8. Swept Away by Christopher Cross
I never had anything happen so fast
I took one look and I shattered like glass
I guess I let it show 'cause your smile told me you knew
That you're everything I ever wanted at once
There's no holding this heart when it knows what it wants
And I never wanted anything more than to know you
I am a fan of whirlwind romance. Something that’s unexpected is always a lovely surprise. This song can simply make me fall in love a hundred times.
9. Angels by Robbie Williams
And through it all she offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I’m right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
I know that life wont break me
when I come to call she wont forsake me
I’m loving angels instead
I didn’t know this song, until someone dedicated this song to me. I was touched when he sang this to me, and I’ll forever remember that. I don’t even think of myself as angelic, but I guess I had this certain effect on him which made him feel that I was his angel. Even if he’s not with me anymore, I’m grateful to have been an angel at least once in my life.
10. Take a Chance on me by Abba
I fell in love with this song when I watched Mamma Mia. It’s a feel good romantic movie that thrills me. When I listen to this song, it carries me to places I’ve never been. I’d love to go around the world and take countless chances to live each day as if it's my last!
1. Light and Shade by Fra Lippo Lippi
Be proud to wear the colours that you call your own
Be loud, speak out when the world to know
Be strong, hold the flame for everyone to see
Be weak, if you want to love.
This is my care-free song. It brings me back to places in the past, more of happy memories that I want to revisit over and over again. When I sing this, it reminds me of good old times with closest friends. The best line in this song for me is “Be weak if you want to love.” Giddy it may sound, I’m a person who puts her heart on her sleeves. It’s fulfilling, because I know I’ve given my best shot when it comes to love. Though sometimes I have to learn the hard way, I never regret anything, and I’d surely risk again if I want to love and be loved in return.
2. Linger by Cranberries
But I’m in so deep. You know I’m such a fool for you. You got me wrapped around your finger. Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to, Do you have to let it linger?
I’ve heard this song many times, but I got to appreciate it only when I watched the movie “Click.”This movie teaches us that life is too short, so let your loved ones feel that you value them. I cried when I watched this movie, and when I heard “Linger”, I cried the more. The song reminds me to grab the chances given to us to express how we truly feel for our dear ones. Let your love linger!
3. You Don’t Know Me by Michael Buble
You give your hand to me
Then you say hello
I can hardly speak
My heart is beating so
And anyone can tell
You think you know me well
But you don't know me
This song is just so romantic, period. It sends shiver to my spines. I’d surely melt. This song just sweeps me off my feet.
4. You’re still you by Josh Groban
I look up to
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong
I've loved you for so long
And after all is said and done
You're still you
After all
You're still you
Recently, I’ve discovered through my sister how relaxing Josh Groban music is. I was never a fan of Josh Groban but there was one time when I was so stressed that I got the chance to listen closely to some of his songs when I was staring blankly at the ceiling. This is just one of his songs that I’ve learned to love. It detoxifies me. I don’t know exactly how I feel everytime I listen to it, but I feel “revitalized” perhaps. It seems that angels are carrying me to heavens.
5. She by Elvis Costello
She
May be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day
This was the song that played during my 18th birthday, that’s why this is so memorable to me. I would never forget that feeling I had as I wore my pink gown and walked like a princess just for that night. That experience with family and close friends was priceless.
6. Hero by Enrique Iglesias
I can be you hero baby
I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away
I was once a damsel in distress, and I had my hero. This is one of those special songs I hold in my heart because it let me feel taken care of. I knew how it felt to be helpless and having someone to just be there for you is more than enough. This song is brimming with passion and for me, unconditional love.
7. Just Another Woman in Love by Anne Murray
I'm strong, I'm sure, I'm in control, a lady with a plan
Believing that life is a neat little package I hold in my hand
I've got it together, they call me "the girl who knows just what to say and do"
Still I fumble and fall, run into the wall, 'cause when it comes to you, I'm
Just another woman in love
I know this is a very melodramatic song of a hopeless romantic woman, but for some reason, I love singing this during karaoke nights. I can sing it with gusto, with matching facial expression. I think I like this song because as my friends say, it seems that I’m always a woman in love. Sometimes stupid, foolish, gullible, but nevertheless, full of love!
8. Swept Away by Christopher Cross
I never had anything happen so fast
I took one look and I shattered like glass
I guess I let it show 'cause your smile told me you knew
That you're everything I ever wanted at once
There's no holding this heart when it knows what it wants
And I never wanted anything more than to know you
I am a fan of whirlwind romance. Something that’s unexpected is always a lovely surprise. This song can simply make me fall in love a hundred times.
9. Angels by Robbie Williams
And through it all she offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I’m right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
I know that life wont break me
when I come to call she wont forsake me
I’m loving angels instead
I didn’t know this song, until someone dedicated this song to me. I was touched when he sang this to me, and I’ll forever remember that. I don’t even think of myself as angelic, but I guess I had this certain effect on him which made him feel that I was his angel. Even if he’s not with me anymore, I’m grateful to have been an angel at least once in my life.
10. Take a Chance on me by Abba
I fell in love with this song when I watched Mamma Mia. It’s a feel good romantic movie that thrills me. When I listen to this song, it carries me to places I’ve never been. I’d love to go around the world and take countless chances to live each day as if it's my last!
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